Certainty, part two… or three.
Talked to the Love today, about our respective pasts. It made me really thing about things.
I often regret my past. I regret the number of women I’ve been with, I regret the actions I took with them… I regret that I wasn’t strong enough to wait until I found the right person. But… it’s valuable, having a past like mine. I know now what’s out there. I know what kind of person I don’t want to spend my life with. I know several archetypes of women I don’t want to be with… and I think I’ve found the one who I’m really compatible with, really supposed to be with.
In short… my past ensures that I’m not left wondering. I don’t need to wonder, because I know. Wondering is what destroyed my marriage. She wondered, and exlpored… they call what she did cheating. I’m over it now, have been for months… and I’m glad it happened, because she wasn’t right for me. The person who I truly consider the love of my life has a past, too. It’s not as extensive as mine, not by a long shot… but it’s enough so that she’s not left wondering, either. It’s comforting knowing that we’re both just happy with each other… and that’s all.
I’m happier than I’ve ever been, and I think I could give anything to maintain that. I truly love this woman, and I don’t have to wonder if she feels the same.
Nighters 
January 28, 2010 at 6:17 am
Then that truly is all that matters! As long as you are happy, you will succeed.